tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70015822011-06-15T07:45:28.038-07:00I created this blog to look at the joyful, happy, and loving moments that create my life.moedeenoreply@blogger.comBlogger441100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7001582.post-1111384034160377912005-03-20T21:45:00.000-08:002005-03-20T21:47:14.163-08:00

As I noted in my other blog, I'm officially on hiatus until (probably) sometime in June, after the end of spring term. With all the writing I do at school, I have almost no interest in doing MORE writing in my off-time. It's been fun and it'll be fun again... :)

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I'm taking a tiny little leave of absence from both this blog and my other blog. There have been some happy stuff that's gone on and that is still going on, but I'm not ready to blog about it yet. Also, I'm tired of writing in general for now. Much love to my one reader - I'll be back soon :)

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to admit that I am grateful for being a middle class, white person but I am. I am grateful that I don't have to deal with the police and the law enforcement machine (sometimes on a daily basis) that many people of color and poor people do. I am grateful that I am not profiled or automatically suspected on the basis of my skin color, age, or social state.

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I'm thankful for triscuts, with or without toppings. Not sure why, but I've been seriously munching on them recently and am happy they're such a tasty faux food.

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I'm grateful for my network of friends, both east and west coast. I've been blessed with a number of thoughtful, loving, and compassionate people in my life and love all of them dearly.

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I posted one of these with my original birth name on my other blog. I'm posting this one here - this is my adopted birth name. The Expression is the same for both but the Soul Urge and Persona are different. I think I have bits of both in me and I think they're both fairly accurate. Name Analysis: Marie C'leste Duncan Expression: 5 The Expression number shows us who we truly are, what we

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I haven't posted the last three days just because school on T/Th is really busy and Wednesday I forgot. Happiness, true and authentic feelings of love and joy, seems difficult for me to find these days but I'm trying. I'm happy that I can afford to buy fresh food - that I don't have to exist on Ramen noodles and McDonald's happy meals. I'm also grateful for a warm bed and money to pay for gas

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Although I find myself questioning my motives for continuing, I'm deeply grateful for my education and the people I've met at both UNC-C and PSU. Mentors and instructors - all have had a profound influence on who I am and what I value. Namaste.

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I washed my coat and my purple downy comforter today. They both smell good. Yesterday, I talked to croed and jneal and remembered again how much I love them. Today, I talked to cduig and refreshed a friendship. The weather was beautiful today.

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I'm glad I spent time with mklo and kaia - quite a bit better than sitting home alone watching Angel. Wonderful conversation with two good friends - I'm glad to know them both.

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but I am going to try and post at least one grateful thought a day here. Today's thought is this: I'm extremely happy that I have safe, reliable transportation. I love my car and am so glad I don't have to depend on the bus or a bicycle or cabs to get around. Yes, I realize that my car is dependent on oil & all the nasty things that implies but she is a Honda and very fuel efficient...

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I just posted about my birthday so I won't put anything on that here. Other than that, things have been pretty uneventful - either positive or negative. I did manage to reconcile with my dad and I think my family relationships are much more stable than they were before. The holidays haven't been too bad, although I've been somewhat bored and restless. I am looking forward to Winter term

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I had a blast yesterday with lval! She went with me to get my hair cut, then we went to Goodwill and went shopping. I got some cool new (to me) threads and had a lot of fun looking at all the icky stuff people wear LOL It was the best day I've had in a long time and we also got some school work done... I'm still feeling good today so maybe the long slump is over :) Current hair Previous hair

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I'm happy because I've had a couple of days off from school and all that 'downward spiral into the pit of hell (a.k.a. finals week)' energy. I took Wednesday nite & Thanksgiving day off - completely - from schoolwork. When I picked up books yesterday (Friday), I found that I was rejuvenated and actually able to focus and start formulating ideas for the many pieces of writing I have coming up.

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I got one more day a week of riding time! My coach asked me yesterday day if I wanted to ride my lesson horse (Spot). I was a bit confused but said yes. Further conversation revealed that Spot's mommy had fallen off (of Spot) and broken her arm, hence, Spot needs someone to ride him until she's well. That someone is me. Well, at least it is for one a day week until his mommy gets better.

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This is the day after the crushing election defeat and you may wonder why I'm bothering to post on this particular blog. Well, I'll tell you. Barak Obama won his senate race. Not unexpected, not a surprise, but something - a ray of hope. Even though the odds are stacked terribly against him (and any other Dems and moderate Reps), he's still there. All day, when I felt despair threatening to

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Although I've been extremely derelict in posting on this blog, there have been good things happening in my life. One of the reasons I've been slow posting here is that I've been writing more in my other blog. What I write there doesn't specifically focus on joy but I manage a great deal of writing about various topics. In the midst of all the happies, there has been some turmoil and some sadness

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Well, school has started and all sorts of nice things have been happening. I've begun my job as a mentor and it's as awesome as I knew it would be. I have a wonderful faculty partner and there are great people in the class. My two classes are already rockin' and I'm feeling that this term is going to help me focus my energy a bit and get a clearer idea about how to shape my education. I also

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Mentor training is almost over and classes are almost begun. The weather is beautiful, I've been out a couple of times lately - met some nice guys - and have spent some time with school friends. I also just got a couple of new pics of my dear Victoria so all is good!

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The past few days have been uneventful, which is not a bad thing. I've been enjoying the final few days of summer before school cranks back up. The Camp LYB gals have gotten back in the swing so hopefully we'll be able to pull it off this time. I'm looking forward to helping plan the camp and put on a workshop. I took Edina (my motorcycle) out for a ride this weekend - took the scenic highway

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Had another fun day at Square Peg weeding, planting (broccoli), and harvesting (beans). Good food & great company (thanks C & A!). Came home and went to a Shadow Work facilitator group and also enjoyed myself a great deal (thanks kcrow). I'm not sure I'll ever be a Shadow Work facilitator but the skills they've developed as far as energy work, group dynamic, and individual awareness will be

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Most of the posts on this blog haven't been all that personal. Most of the time, the really personal stuff is too painful to put on a public blog so it goes elsewhere. However, this post is going to be more personal. It's kind of nice to have something personal to blog about that isn't tearing my heart out or threatening to make my head explode. This post is about my family and a recent

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I went to my very first full mooon drumming circle last night and it was pretty great. kai, mklo, kcam, and wpark were all there, along with the woman hostessing and several other nice people. The most intense part for me was feeling, for the first time, really connected to my Native American heritage. There were a couple of times while we were drumming that I could help moving/dancing around

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I just spend some time volunteering at Square Peg - a local, organic farm. I spent most of my time today weeding but it was pretty cool. I also got to have some great food, good company and took away a bag of farm fresh produce goodies! The bag of goodies was an unexpected treat - something I am keeping in mind with regard to the universe providing for my needs. Although I'm a bit sore and

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It's been about a week and half since I returned from my trip. Nothing especially awesome has happened - I've been out on a few first meets (first in person meeting with someone I met online - usually tea or coffee), made my last trip to Camp Westwind, and found a barn. Finding a barn is the biggest thing - especially because I'm going to be a working student and I really like the trainer. I

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My darling niece :) Me with semi-fuzzy hair

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I just got back from my trip to NC and have many happy things to mention. I think I'll just slap 'em in a list (not by order of importance), so I don't forget anything. By the way, I've put some stuff in my list that weren't part of the trip but that I haven't talked about before. Victoria's birthday. Lots of fun, cake, and adorable little girl pictures. My brother called and left me a message

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Yes, I've been neglectful. Actually, I've completely ignored this blog for the last month or so - mainly because I've been expending the vast majority of my energy on schoolwork. That's done now, so I have much to be grateful for - first and foremost, that said schoolwork is now done. My return accomplished, I am now off for a nap.

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It's the 4th of July weekend and I've got four days off. Today was *so* nice - I slept in, did nothing, and went and saw mdal's art show. We went and saw Supersize Me (great movie btw) and just hung out. In all, a relaxing and fun day. I also talked to sbara and she invited me over to their place for 4th celebrations. At least I won't spend the whole holiday alone :) Not to be a downer, but

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So the last couple of weeks haven't been to joyful but I'm going to jot down at least one happy thought. I completed my first volunteer session at Camp Westwind and it went well. Instead of having three longer sessions, I taught five or six short, intense sessions. I was invited back to teach at Family Camp and Camp OUT - both later this summer. I'm looking forward to it, especially since it

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I'm not feeling much joy right now. I missed my sister's wedding and my grandmother is dying. I'm in a class at school that has me apologizing for being white, being American, and being human. On the up side, it's not as hot today as it was a couple of days ago.

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I had a lovely, relaxing weekend visiting ccan. We saw a *great* band (Dr. Funk) on Saturday night and just had a great time :) The food was great and we also got to dance. I rode the train both ways and that was kind of mediocre. I love to drive so I'm thinking that I'll probably drive if I take any more trips up that way. Let me just say again how much I love the Pacific Northwest. Never

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It's been a good week so far. Did the trial run bdance class for the YWCA staffers. The trip to the camp is a long and hilarious story, needless to say I got there and taught two mixed gender classes and had a great time. In addition to the trip, I was startled because there were men in the classes. Not bad, I had just 'ass-u-med' that there would be only women LOL All the volunteers were

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I went to hren's grad party tonight and it was a fantastic time! "Why was it so great?" you ask - I'll tell ya: I got to dance for a whole group of people and it was the best feeling ever. They were absolutely appreciative of my dancing and didn't make it sleazy. The whole group enjoyed it - especially when other people got up & wanted to learn some bellydance moves. I LOVED it!! Also, the

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I made initial contact with all my outreach assignments for Camp LYB. I also followed up with some of the dance information that corph and I found out about a couple of days ago. Corph and I got together today and went through my Bdance class outline. It was great and I think our workshops are going to be fantastic. I'm also realizing that all the sports & such I've participated in over the

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well well well. It looks like my good intentions around posting daily have flown off by the wayside. However, I will not give up, I will strive to be more diligent in posting my happy moments! I have had a few happy moments in the last week, here they are: First term at school - successfully completed :) Camp Love Your Body is getting ramped up, I'm doing a Bellydance for Self Esteem workshop

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Yesterday (Tuesday) was a pretty fun day. I had breakfast with rall (adorable) and had afternoon (great) coversation & food with sabar. After that, I met a guy I'd been emailing for a few days & we took a walk on the waterfront. This little encounter is now officially a Funny Date Story but it wasn't unpleasant, just had some odd moments! I won't be continuing contact with him, but he was

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so i'm happy today cause rall told me that he loves to read my blog! i also got a comment from another person (whom i don't know) that she likes it also. so cool :) Thanks to dmclell for sending me another great blog to read. it's a kind of sad, depressing subject but the blogger writes so well and has such a wonderful attitude it's still a pleasure to read. another happy event - i

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I ended up having a very grouchy day due to some administrative crapola at school but my happy thoughts are that it was cool and rainy and the colors were beautiful and vibrant. I was happy because it hasn't rained in a while and it just felt nice - the air was good to breathe. Also, I finished the first draft of my CR Systems paper (even though it ended up not being due until Monday) and it's

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I've had a good weekend :) went to my Flow class on Saturday and it was really good. I don't like this release that much but it is challenging and I'm starting to feel it a little more. Ended up going to see Shrek 2 with mdal Saturday night and it was absolutely cute! There were some clever bits although some of it just seemed a bit weird. Today, mstach and I went to the Rose Gardens and Mt.

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Yesterday & today's happy moments both center around bellydancing. I'm working to put together something with the local YWCA to promote bellydancing for self esteeem for young women. I'm not entirely sure how it's all going to work out but I've arranged to do a couple of sessions at their first summer camp & I think it's going to be one of the funnest things I've ever done!! My next step is to

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I have two posts today simply because I neglected to post yesterday! Yesterday, I had a GREAT day! I took my new (actually, it's about 40 yrs old) Yashica TLR and went to the Japanese Gardens here in Portland. I shot four rolls of film and just had a wonderful time. After that, I got on hwy 26 and just drove west for about an hour. The countryside was stunning - especially after I got off

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I had breakfast with rall this morning and it was great! We ate the Cup & Saucer over on Hawthorne - good food and a nice atmosphere. I did blow off my BodyFlow class but got some really nice cards while we were out strolling around.

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I was talking to my friend rall today and he mentioned starting a joy journal. Since I do a lot of moaning & complaining in my other blog, I thought he had a good idea. I started this blog to help remind myself (hopefully daily) that my life is, on the whole, a joyous and peaceful experience. Even though there is a great deal of pain, suffering, and fear in the world, I don't have to respond

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